All I really want

A JB Hifi opened up in Penrith some time recently. I’m assuming it’s while I was away, because I went to Penrith today and there it was, right where it wasn’t before.

I like JB Hifi, in that they always seem to have what I’m after. They stock ridiculous amounts of stuff, and they seem to have more alternative stuff than anything else. The staff are all about 15, and some of their labelling is a bit suspect (THE Doves? c’mon) but I can usually find what I want. I picked up Modest Mouse today for $10, as well as a copy of Jagged Little Pill.

I owned a copy of Jagged Little Pill in 1995 when it was first released, and it was the first CD I became obsessed with from a female singer/songwriter. So really, it started off a whole new era of music for me. I must have played this CD back to back for about 4 or 5 months, to the point where I just became completely sick of it. And then of course it caught on commercially, so the songs were everywhere, and I just had to put it away. At some point in around 1997 I lent it to Hayley, so it was invariably never seen again.

I hadn’t really thought much else about it, because some of the songs from the CD are still thrashed on commercial radio and my music taste has shifted a lot and is a lot broader now. Then I saw it there today in the $10 bin and thought, what the heck.

I’m so glad I bought it. I put it on in the car on the way home and I was transported back to 2nd year uni, in the car with Brett and Angela, driving out to Rivcol. Them moaning at me for playing it AGAIN – Brett wanting to put Smash by Offspring in the tape player (because of course we didn’t have a CD player in the crappy car we had and we had to transfer everything to tape) and Angela wanting to listen to Pearl Jam because she was SO IN LOVE with Eddie Vedder. Me shut up in my room, with it on full tilt while Mum is screaming at me from the lounge room to turn it down and don’t you have some study to do or something?

And lyrically, really, this album is genius. You Oughta Know must be one of the best fuck off songs ever written. I don’t really care that nothing else she’s done since has come close to being as good – this album is raw and well written and musically brilliant. And for some reason, even though I was transported back to being 19 and at uni, the lyrics on this album (particularly the first track) ring so true to my life right now. So today there was a feeling of full circle – it’s nice to know that even though some of the last 10 years I was lost in a wilderness where I wasn’t listening to myself and didn’t know who I was, that I found my way back to a time when I did. Or at least, thought I did. Now I know better 🙂

And all I need now is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is dying
If only I could kill the killer

What I wouldn’t give to find a soul mate
someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn’t give to meet a kindred

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