So, thereâ€™s this thing.Â Itâ€™s something that happened (I guess you could call it recently, but itâ€™s been over some months, really).Â Well, someone that happened.Â And Iâ€™ve not been writing about it.
There were a couple of reasons for this.Â Firstly, I wanted to keep it close.Â I wanted to see what it was like to have something fairly huge happen in your life and keep it close.Â Iâ€™ve been attempting that over the last 6 months or so and you know what?Â It seems to be working.Â The whole â€˜letâ€™s not play the whole thing out in our minds and tell the whole world about it and sabotage any chance it had from the outset as a resultâ€™ thing is seemingly paying dividends.Â So, there was that.Â Also, when thereâ€™s a whole other person involved, a whole other person who reads this damn thing, I felt like it was apt to take some care, you know?Â I might be the sort of girl who doesnâ€™t mind spewing forth into the world of the internets everything contained within her skull, but I get that others donâ€™t really roll like that.
Also, thereâ€™s another reason.Â In the past, well, in past relationships at least, Iâ€™ve felt like there was some form of emotional currency.Â Like, you let someone in, or you let them see just how much you care about them, and itâ€™s almost like they save this up to use against you later on.Â They keep it safe in their mind and it builds into this thick comfort buffer and before you know it theyâ€™re numb to you and they feel comfortable taking you and your affection for granted.
So anyway, there were discussions on the weekend, and I feel a little more comfortable going there.Â Not that this is going to turn into a blog about the boy, but I donâ€™t feel like I need to step around it anymore.Â Heâ€™s lovely though.Â Just so you know.Â Well, heâ€™s many things, but lovely is one of them.
Kinda feels good to write about it.
Itâ€™s much more likely to turn into a blog about the cat.Â Bowie tells me heâ€™s ready for a career as an internet celebrity, and I think he has what it takes.Â Heâ€™s definitely precocious enough and self-centered enough to blog.Â Actually, right now heâ€™s asleep right by my keyboard, and itâ€™s the cutest thing ever.
Yes.Â This is what you have to look forward to.Â 216 posts in a row of OMG KITTEN CUTENESS.